Please excuse me, I'm not thinking clear
It must just be stress
But I likely shouldn't be here, I'm such a mess

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page (Wish I could explain)

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain The things that I have to work out

I don't feel right
What has come over me, I'm about
To lose my mind

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page (Wish I could explain)

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain

Can I let the trees do the talking
Can I let the ground do the walking
Can I let the sky fill what's missing
Can I let my mouth do the listening, the listening

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain
What I mean to say

The Listening - Lights

Take Life Into Your Own Hands

You Have to Give and Take

Karma

Every Day

Every day...


I hope, I wish, I pray, I cry for


a miracle
my dream to come true
the wait to be over
my turn



...for you to come home.

What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

Still Alive

I have changed
I have changed
Just like you
Just like you

For how long
For how long
Must I wait
I know there's something wrong

Your concrete heart isn't beating
And I've tried to
Make it come alive

No shadows
Just red lights
Now I'm here to rescue you oh

Oh I'm still alive
I'm still alive
But can not apologize, no

Oh I'm still alive
I'm still alive
But can not apologize, no

So silent
No violence
But inside my head
So loud and clear

You're screaming
You're screaming
Covered up with a smile I've learned to fear

Just sunshine
And blue sky
Is this all we get
For living here

Come fire
Come fire
Let it burn and love come racing through

Oh I'm still alive
I'm still alive
But can not apologize, no

Oh I'm still alive
I'm still alive
But can not apologize, no

I've learn to lose
I've learn to win
I've turned my face against the wind

I will move fast
I will move slow
Take me where I have to go

Oh I'm still alive
I'm still alive
But can not apologize, no

credits: Still Alive by Lisa Miskovsky

Dear Heart

Dear Heart,

Please, feel better. I know things aren't the best right now, but keep strong and push through. You're better than this. Don't let yourself fall prey to the bad things in your life. You have so much to live for.

Don't give up. Karma is real. Sure you've messed up a couple times in life, but I know you fixed your mistakes and try very hard. Right now, you're just going through a bunch of bad stuff, but I promise you, Karma will follow through and after this mess is over, you'll receive nothing but good things.

It's hard to be patient right now when you feel so awful, but "good things happen to those who wait". Yes we all need to take action to help ourselves reach what we want, but patience can really go a long way.

Dealing with these problems will only make you stronger.

Please feel better.

Love,

Me

Love

"If you love something, set it free.
If it comes back to you, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was.

We do not possess anything in this world, least of all other people.
We only imagine that we do.
Our friends, our lovers, our spouses, even our children are not ours; they belong only to themselves.

Possessive and controlling friendships and relationships can be as harmful as neglect."


Please come home.

Scars

Scars are souvenirs you never lose...

Be Happy

The Lost Get Found

Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you

song credit: Britt Nicole